Sunday, October 18, 2009

Dear Sophie.

Today at church, Pastor Greg was talking about the scandalous love that God has for all of us.  I am so grateful for you, because being your mom helps me to understand God better and why He loves us the way He does.  I get it, because it's the same way I love you! ;-)

Anyway...when you and I got home, we were walking in the house and you said, "Mommy - where's Jesus?"  And I told you, "He's in our hearts".  To which you replied with a follow-up question of "in our heart boxes, mommy?"

It's moments like this when I can't figure out if I should laugh, cry or think you're the smartest kid on the planet.  Your favorite show - Ni hao, Kai-lan - strikes again.  On one of the episodes, Kai-Lan goes to China. It's a very big deal for her, and she takes her most prized possessions with her inside of her very special heart box.  She shows the people she loves what she has inside her heart(box) and it's super sweet.  I can't begin to understand how you could possible equate the two concepts (Jesus in our hearts vs special treasures in our heart boxes) but I am so proud and in awe of you.  

I couldn't even correct you, because technically I think Jesus would be in our heart boxes, if we had them.  I know this, my sweet are definitely in MY heart, box or not. 

your mommy
I haven't blogged for so long - which is really the recurrent theme of this blog, I suppose.  But for reasons I can no longer ignore, I must blog again.  This time, however, it's for one solitary purpose...

My sweet baby girl is shockingly, speedily, unabashedly growing up before my eyes.  I haven't blogged about her for so long because (I justified, to myself) I was busy being consumed in the day to day of her being.  I couldn't spare a moment to write about her, because I was so busy being with her.  I try to randomly post on facebook the exciting moments of the day, and capture her sweet moments in pictures shot on my blackberry.  But, it's getting harder and harder to remember all the funny, sweet, wonderful moments with my baby girl - who's not so much of a baby anymore - and I need to start writing them down. 

For example, I just had to leave this blog and my train of thought to run into the other room when I heard across the monitor "Mommy!!! I need help with my diaper!!!" Upon entering the room, I found Sophie quite distressed, with a diaper in her hand and no diaper on her naked body.  "Sophie," I said, "did you take your diaper off?" Her reply? "No mommy. Diaper came off. Sophie no take diaper off!"  Relieved that there was no poo in the diaper, I put it back on and happily obliged when she asked, "Mommy, rock you again please?"  Who could resist that? So I did, and she protested being tired but quickly fell asleep in my arms.  Ahhh...there is TRULY nothing better in the world.  

I digress. Back to the future of the blog.  In an attempt to slow down time and capture the sweet and wonderful moments of childhood, I'm changing the format of these updates.  They'll now be letters to my darling Sophia - similar to the private journal and letters I've been writing to her since before she was born.  But, I promise to put the sweet and funny ones out here, for all of you following along in this world wide web of ours.  Feel free to check in, have a laugh and share in our tender moments.  Just know that I've found a new audience I'm desperate to write for - my two year old daughter.